The last time when I entered that forbidden maze, I struggled. But later as I made my way inside I started enjoying the darkness. A few moments of euphoria is all what I got. The exit of the maze i.e. my destination eluded me although I knew I had it within me to find my way. But then I realized - It ain't worth it! And so I retreated and struggled my way back to the point where it all began. Out of the maze I was back to square one. Several months passed, the wounds had healed. That forbidden maze did not lure anymore. Would I ever take another shot and enter that maze? NO -- came the answer from my head. As far as the heart goes, it had gone cold.
But then one day when I was asleep, the sun emerged out of nowhere! What followed was that gentle and gracious smile. That ray of sunlight fell straight on my heart and the ice crust covering it melted. Yes -- it started thumping again! I said to myself that this is just temporary, and that the dark clouds would cover the sun again. But no, the warmth of those sun rays kept following me wherever I went.
And so I was tempted again to enter that forbidden maze. This time around the maze was difficult, with more twists and turns, and more dead ends. But the destination was bliss as I had seen in my recurring dreams. Yes, my intuition which is seldom wrong told me -- This time you are going to reach paradise. Yes, once again, I forced open the gates to the maze. Very unlike me, this time I wanted to get through it quickly and reach the destination. I went where my heart guided me and did what it told me to do. But this game just got tougher. My intuition, my heart, and my optimism failed me. As I ran, I hit the dead end and have now fallen into this big hole. As I look up from here I still see that elusive sunlight everyday. The difference being that this time it sort of mocks me and the warmth doesn't reach me though the heart is still burning.
And so, here I am, stuck in this maze again, fallen into this deep hole, where I am accompanied by darkness, anguish, loneliness and despair! Perhaps I am not meant to cross this maze ever and reach the destination. Now as I fight for survival, I have to pull my self out of here and get back to where I began. So what if my heart will freeze again? Atleast it will be less dark, less lonely, lesser anguish and lesser despair.....
...Gasping for breath I definitely want to find my way out of here!
But then one day when I was asleep, the sun emerged out of nowhere! What followed was that gentle and gracious smile. That ray of sunlight fell straight on my heart and the ice crust covering it melted. Yes -- it started thumping again! I said to myself that this is just temporary, and that the dark clouds would cover the sun again. But no, the warmth of those sun rays kept following me wherever I went.
And so I was tempted again to enter that forbidden maze. This time around the maze was difficult, with more twists and turns, and more dead ends. But the destination was bliss as I had seen in my recurring dreams. Yes, my intuition which is seldom wrong told me -- This time you are going to reach paradise. Yes, once again, I forced open the gates to the maze. Very unlike me, this time I wanted to get through it quickly and reach the destination. I went where my heart guided me and did what it told me to do. But this game just got tougher. My intuition, my heart, and my optimism failed me. As I ran, I hit the dead end and have now fallen into this big hole. As I look up from here I still see that elusive sunlight everyday. The difference being that this time it sort of mocks me and the warmth doesn't reach me though the heart is still burning.
And so, here I am, stuck in this maze again, fallen into this deep hole, where I am accompanied by darkness, anguish, loneliness and despair! Perhaps I am not meant to cross this maze ever and reach the destination. Now as I fight for survival, I have to pull my self out of here and get back to where I began. So what if my heart will freeze again? Atleast it will be less dark, less lonely, lesser anguish and lesser despair.....
...Gasping for breath I definitely want to find my way out of here!
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